Dedicated to my beloved Grandmother Ruth. A Lone Monarch - Wallpaper Story She breezed in, out of nowhere it seemed With the flutter of her regal wings Softly she whispered as she brushed past my skin: “It’s ok… it’s ok… it’ll be okay…” Mesmerized, tears filled my eyes I gasped, my breath taken away “Is that you” I whispered? And then just as soon as she came she flew up again “Wait! Come back!” I cried out “Please stay…” And as I started to turn away The sun in my eyes pushi

Trapped Energy - Wallpaper Story Trapped energy weaves and wraps itself around my bones Pulling tighter and tighter they dance into knots They curl and furl and coil even tighter My deep breath turns shallow and then - a moan What is the purpose of this pain? What does it wish to tell me and why Dear God, so loudly? Twitches and spasms my spine is on fire It aches and it bends unable to carry the weight Of all this inflamed trapped energy How do I release that which is too h

An Episode of Pain - Wallpaper Story The grief that grips my body The pain that refuses to let go The sadness at what could have been The anger at what’s not The broken heart that still needs mending The sad soul that has oh so many questions unanswered That dear depression that pushes in Slowly at first And then whoosh The shock and trauma still heavy and hot And the tears that pour And the pain that will not let go… Breathe body - begone pain, I beg of you Leave me to be

Wander in Wonder - Wallpaper Story It has already been written. All you have to do is lean close and listen. Close your eyes you'll be surprised to find in time what was always there... Do you wander in wonder? Do you ever wonder why we wander? Will we wander till we wonder no more?

Always - Wallpaper Story Always trying to be so good Remembering to keep my cool And play by the rules Always fighting to succeed Even when I’m on my knees Losing sight of what it all means Why does it always have to be so tough Why do I never feel like it’s ever enough Always trying so hard to win Feeling like a loser Never even coming in Second or third And I know it’s absurd Cuz that’s not what it’s all about Or so they say… But look me in the eye Cuz every night I p

Chronic Pain - Wallpaper Story And then there are those days, Where I have no choice but to surrender and say: “you won today pain” I shall do nothing but stay in bed and sleep. At least in my dreams you are far far away. And when I awake again the nightmare that is you shall sadly remain.

Migraine - Wallpaper Story Give me darkness Give me peace Take this treacherous pain This beast That feasts on my brain And won’t let me sleep Free my soul From its thorny chains This fucking migraine Will I ever be free of this pain?

Long Gone - Wallpaper Story My tears have long dried My anger has subsided Most days I don't feel any pain But every now and then you come to mind. And I smile because unlike back then I know I won't love you again.

Set Yourself Free - Wallpaper Story Trapped inside Where do you go? Where do we stay? When there’s so much- To say And the words run away Will I be here waiting For them to find me? Or would I have already Flown away.

My Waking Nightmare - Wallpaper Story My lips remain sealed My tongue numb I no longer want I no longer care My heart beats soft My eyes just stare In between pockets of sleep Come the nightmare waking hours of despair

The Invisible Being - Wallpaper Story The Invisible being Stands big and long Its presence strong I don’t pretend to know If it is a he Or a she Its shadow lingers A faint laughter is heard Till it disappears Return again it will Bear down on me until There will be nothing left Of me and I too will Disappear.

An Artist's Nightmare - Wallpaper Story You chained me to my bed of fears And covered me with lies You watched my stream of tears While you whispered hateful Lullabies As your shadow danced up my walls In shapes of failures and flaws You wickedly laughed As I tried to get up Forcing me down to my knees I begged you to go: “I don’t love you no more!” I ran, and pushed, and screamed. But you just stood still And strangled my will Throwing me down to the floor Then you lay

The Masked Being - Wallpaper Story Last night I dreamt you came back Uninvited and masked I knew it was you I could see right thru Your black eyes And words of blue You’re ominous and strong And it won’t be long You turned and whispered: “I’m always here -- I’m never gone”