Trapped Energy - Wallpaper Story Trapped energy weaves and wraps itself around my bones Pulling tighter and tighter they dance into knots They curl and furl and coil even tighter My deep breath turns shallow and then - a moan What is the purpose of this pain? What does it wish to tell me and why Dear God, so loudly? Twitches and spasms my spine is on fire It aches and it bends unable to carry the weight Of all this inflamed trapped energy How do I release that which is too h

An Episode of Pain - Wallpaper Story The grief that grips my body The pain that refuses to let go The sadness at what could have been The anger at what’s not The broken heart that still needs mending The sad soul that has oh so many questions unanswered That dear depression that pushes in Slowly at first And then whoosh The shock and trauma still heavy and hot And the tears that pour And the pain that will not let go… Breathe body - begone pain, I beg of you Leave me to be

Always - Wallpaper Story Always trying to be so good Remembering to keep my cool And play by the rules Always fighting to succeed Even when I’m on my knees Losing sight of what it all means Why does it always have to be so tough Why do I never feel like it’s ever enough Always trying so hard to win Feeling like a loser Never even coming in Second or third And I know it’s absurd Cuz that’s not what it’s all about Or so they say… But look me in the eye Cuz every night I p

Migraine - Wallpaper Story Give me darkness Give me peace Take this treacherous pain This beast That feasts on my brain And won’t let me sleep Free my soul From its thorny chains This fucking migraine Will I ever be free of this pain?

Long Gone - Wallpaper Story My tears have long dried My anger has subsided Most days I don't feel any pain But every now and then you come to mind. And I smile because unlike back then I know I won't love you again.

Set Yourself Free - Wallpaper Story Trapped inside Where do you go? Where do we stay? When there’s so much- To say And the words run away Will I be here waiting For them to find me? Or would I have already Flown away.

My Waking Nightmare - Wallpaper Story My lips remain sealed My tongue numb I no longer want I no longer care My heart beats soft My eyes just stare In between pockets of sleep Come the nightmare waking hours of despair

Final Moments - Wallpaper Story Stop. Set yourself free March in place where no one can see Signs point in all directions And you have nowhere to go Stand still Your heart is running rampant You lose the will That final moment comes- Go for the kill.

The Invisible Being - Wallpaper Story The Invisible being Stands big and long Its presence strong I don’t pretend to know If it is a he Or a she Its shadow lingers A faint laughter is heard Till it disappears Return again it will Bear down on me until There will be nothing left Of me and I too will Disappear.

You - Wallpaper Story Ah You… You who played a fool You who acted the part Destined to fail from the start You who ripped right through and crushed my heart Oh You… You whom I knew Could never be true Because you could never see that it wasn’t ever you It was always Me.

An Artist's Nightmare - Wallpaper Story You chained me to my bed of fears And covered me with lies You watched my stream of tears While you whispered hateful Lullabies As your shadow danced up my walls In shapes of failures and flaws You wickedly laughed As I tried to get up Forcing me down to my knees I begged you to go: “I don’t love you no more!” I ran, and pushed, and screamed. But you just stood still And strangled my will Throwing me down to the floor Then you lay

The Masked Being - Wallpaper Story Last night I dreamt you came back Uninvited and masked I knew it was you I could see right thru Your black eyes And words of blue You’re ominous and strong And it won’t be long You turned and whispered: “I’m always here -- I’m never gone”

Life's Silhouetted Words - Wallpaper Story Life devoid of meaning Bursting with feelings Moments of blissful joy Disturbed in night’s darkness Consumed by doubt and fear With the light of day Hidden behind dark curtains drawn I lay in the arms of my dear old friend Not weak Not strong Merely existing Reluctantly holding on Will any of it ever make sense? I ask Before I am gone? Or perhaps my words Will aid them on Those who aren’t here yet? Those who are not yet gone? Or will

My Shadow - Wallpaper Story His Shadow stood tall and dark I turned and looked with a start “You’re back.” I remarked. “I never left.” He said with an invisible smirk His loud whisper crushed my heart with a jerk. “Of course.” Said I. Tears streamed from my eyes. Lies lies lies. Meaningless lies. Trapped in the darkness of the night’s skies. Nowhere to go. Nothing to be. Left all alone my shadow and me.