Drowning - Wallpaper Story Self doubt – its seeping in (Fear is creeping) Self doubt – I’m caving in (Pain is drowning) You win. I’m not sure And I don’t know Anymore If I’m on the right track If I’ve got what it takes and what I lack Is it right? Is it wrong? Am I weak? Am I strong? Maybe if I hit rock bottom With nowhere to go That’s when I’ll finally be able to -- Let it all go.

Unearthed - Wallpaper Story I carried the weight of your pain for far too long Pregnant with the disease of your abuse Nearly buried full of the dirt you left behind But fool that you are And the many times you underestimated me Only made me that much stronger, smarter And best of all spiritually powerful And when Lady Karma came knocking on your door You became an even bigger fool How easy it was to lock you up and throw away the key Your arrogance your only friend and enemy

Dedicated to my beloved Grandmother Ruth. A Lone Monarch - Wallpaper Story She breezed in, out of nowhere it seemed With the flutter of her regal wings Softly she whispered as she brushed past my skin: “It’s ok… it’s ok… it’ll be okay…” Mesmerized, tears filled my eyes I gasped, my breath taken away “Is that you” I whispered? And then just as soon as she came she flew up again “Wait! Come back!” I cried out “Please stay…” And as I started to turn away The sun in my eyes pushi

Trapped Energy - Wallpaper Story Trapped energy weaves and wraps itself around my bones Pulling tighter and tighter it dances into knots It curls and furls and coils even tighter My deep breath turns shallow and then - a loud moan What is the purpose of this pain? What does it wish to tell me and why Dear God, so loudly? Twitches and spasms, my spine is on fire It aches and it bends unable to carry the weight Of all this inflamed trapped energy How do I release that which is

An Episode of Pain - Wallpaper Story The grief that grips my body The pain that refuses to let go The sadness at what could have been The anger at what’s not The broken heart that still needs mending The sad soul that has oh so many questions unanswered That dear depression that pushes in Slowly at first And then whoosh The shock and trauma still heavy and hot And the tears that pour And the pain that will not let go… Breathe body - begone pain, I beg of you Leave me to be

Bluebells in Banbury - Wallpaper Story The forest floor Was a tapestry full of bluebells A carpet of purple, blue, and green The trees cast shade Whilst the birds sing The rain wet and heavy on the leaves As the tulips stood tall Proudly they opened up When the Sun came to call Mother Nature’s Majesty A story so grand It could have only come From the greatest storyteller of them all And I, so small sing glory to God and Hallelujah.

Divine Flow - Wallpaper Story You walked me through the fire And guided me through the pain That rained So heavily Down You smiled upon me With sunshine And listened to me sing Under the glowing moon spotlight The cool night air Like a warm soft kiss Upon my forehead And in your darkness I am awakened And in your light I am bathed You are always with me And I am always with you A divine infinite flow of love, my Dear God.

When Seasons Come to Call - Wallpaper Story This is the kind of weather poets write about And Lovers dream and frolic about When spring, excited for summer soon to come Is filled with the sound of birds chirping, The soft breeze blowing as the leaves rustle gently in the trees Tenderly singing to the flowers waiting for their time to bloom This is the season of change Ushering in summer, the season Of play, Hot and passionate Joyous and warm Filled with sunshine and happine

Wander in Wonder - Wallpaper Story It has already been written. All you have to do is lean close and listen. Close your eyes you'll be surprised to find in time what was always there... Do you wander in wonder? Do you ever wonder why we wander? Will we wander till we wonder no more?

Always - Wallpaper Story Always trying to be so good Remembering to keep my cool And play by the rules Always fighting to succeed Even when I’m on my knees Losing sight of what it all means Why does it always have to be so tough Why do I never feel like it’s ever enough Always trying so hard to win Feeling like a loser Never even coming in Second or third And I know it’s absurd Cuz that’s not what it’s all about Or so they say… But look me in the eye Cuz every night I p

Chronic Pain - Wallpaper Story And then there are those days, Where I have no choice but to surrender and say: “you won today pain” I shall do nothing but stay in bed and sleep. At least in my dreams you are far far away. And when I awake again the nightmare that is you shall sadly remain.

Long Gone - Wallpaper Story My tears have long dried My anger has subsided Most days I don't feel any pain But every now and then you come to mind. And I smile because unlike back then I know I won't love you again.

Set Yourself Free - Wallpaper Story Trapped inside Where do you go? Where do we stay? When there’s so much- To say And the words run away Will I be here waiting For them to find me? Or would I have already Flown away.

My Waking Nightmare - Wallpaper Story My lips remain sealed My tongue numb I no longer want I no longer care My heart beats soft My eyes just stare In between pockets of sleep Come the nightmare waking hours of despair

The Invisible Being - Wallpaper Story The Invisible being Stands big and long Its presence strong I don’t pretend to know If it is a he Or a she Its shadow lingers A faint laughter is heard Till it disappears Return again it will Bear down on me until There will be nothing left Of me and I too will Disappear.

An Artist's Nightmare - Wallpaper Story You chained me to my bed of fears And covered me with lies You watched my stream of tears While you whispered hateful Lullabies As your shadow danced up my walls In shapes of failures and flaws You wickedly laughed As I tried to get up Forcing me down to my knees I begged you to go: “I don’t love you no more!” I ran, and pushed, and screamed. But you just stood still And strangled my will Throwing me down to the floor Then you lay